My legs stop working unless I take 5mg Prednisolone a day. The problem was that I was only prescribed tablets for the "emergency" treatment of 1 or 2 weeks after which I would stop taking the tablet. On the third cycle of that happening this year, I become so loathe at the idea of losing my legs again that I didn't stop taking them. That was June sometime. It took a little while but by this month I was ready to tackle all the medical appointments that I had let accumulate since before Christmas last year. I WON'T DELIBERATELY PUSH MYSELF INTO RELAPSE any more when I know for sure that it is going to happen. It's not hard to tell when it is going to happen for sure and going out for any reason for even tiny amounts of time has been enough to cause payback all year and I don't see why I should have to line up for it especially if these are my last days....relatively speaking. I'm not inclined to do it for anyone else any more either and I think that is the point when friendships reveal themselves as "fair weather" friendships. People question my love for them possibly because I am not prepared to pay the price of putting up with discomfort which to my body is akin to stress. It could be just the cold wind that my body hates or it could be the energy of "talking" or the light intensity or the fact that I have to wear clothes of a certain calibre. Ban the bra! I say.
When I take the prednisolone I feel more alive and more able to distract myself from environmental stress and yeah, my legs work and I can think more clearly and feel more in control because of it. I have not had a nice time of trying to imagine myself any more sick than I already am so now the pressure is off and I can enjoy myself within my limitations. I can potter around the house slowly getting things organised and I can make it to appointments with far less dread. I've had my hearing aid checked and adjusted and I changed providers for the better. I had my eyes checked for everything in a particular effort to find a reason for the "eye headaches" but there was none. I had a home sleep study which I have not got the results of yet and a lung CT which I have got the results of in a watered-down fashion - the nodule has changed!
Now that the news has digested I have more questions but on the day I was just as keen to secure a long-term supply of prednisolone (before discussing the lung lumps) so that I could take it daily and keep my legs working which I did. She agreed to daily. She obviously does not want me to lose my walking again either but the only thing she said was that we will try to lower the dose as soon as possible. But now I want to know if taking steroids makes lung nodules grow? All the steroid sprays this year and it grows and none last year and it doesn't? I have not researched this so it is just my thoughts. If I think about it from another angle, I could ask, what is likely to grow faster in the presence of steroids? The answer to that one is fungus. Fungus has been on my mind since the antibiotics seemed to trigger that familiar itch as well as the most worrisome burning mouth I have had all year. It was so intense.
Living my life is kinder to me when I take both the Targin pain killers and now the low-dose steroids as well. I spend too much time feeling ill, and in pain even with these bandaids in my opinion and I do have trouble with side effects, although fewer now that my body is getting a consistent dose. I do wonder how long it will last as being something I am grateful for. Back in my high-dose steroid days (the Crohn's days) the benefit seemed to wear off over time (years). And right now the benefit does not feel as good as it did because I can still get that lead legs feeling that I once used to ignore. However rather than "poop-out", it could be the fact that I have been taking both Amoxycillin and Clarithromycin antibiotics because there is a chance that the lung nodule change is just the result of an infection. But her prescription was only for a week and that seems such a short time to try and rid me of an infection that has been causing lung-snoring noises, sinus problems and a cough to clear the mucus all year. I'd like it to prove that it is not asthma or COPD as she diagnosed already this year and it is a flare up of say mycoplasma pneumonia (a past infection of mine) by getting better while I am on the antibiotics, but I feel terrible while taking these antibiotics. I've actually finished taking them but I still feel bad. I was feeling so much better on a regular dose of steroid alone, but I wouldn't even know I am taking an energy-giving steroid right now because I feel yuk and "coma sleep" kind of tired again and if anything, it seems to have stirred up the coughing and lung rattles and mucus squeak sounds even more. I wonder if any of that got picked up on in the sleep study? The extra sore throat I have would not have been noticed by anyone because no-one has actually asked me about my symptoms. I've also been feeling feverish again and I've complained of mini-fevers coming and going all year too. Needless to say, I hate antibiotic treatments.......even if they work long term to reduce an unproven bug load (which they did in 2012). But this little one week application won't even do that. My gut is now trying to pay me back with my stomach not letting my food go down. I am taking a couple of different kinds of probiotics and prebiotics in an attempt to avoid candida and thrush but that has not been something I can count on working.
Anyway, it is starting to sound more like lung cancer as I write about coughing and squeaking and even fevers so I think I will stop writing. It feels like I've been threatened with lung cancer all my smoking life and even when I stopped for 2 years the medical people still treated me like a smoker so it is sort of like "you deserve cancer you idiot". It's nice to know I may get a chance to keep everyone happy in their illusion of life's predictability. The Lyme and CFS and fibromyalgia and crazy autoimmune markers and 100 symptoms (yes I've counted) will be forgotten about if I have cancer. That worries me. My life and death is now for the purpose of validating all the promising research into multi-systemic chronic disease and to have lung cancer put down on my death certificate will ruin everything!!!!
Keeping my family updated about my life with a constellation of "insignificant" (not to me, to the medical system) symptoms called syndromes.
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Saturday, August 19, 2017
Saturday, February 25, 2017
I just can't get out of here but at least we know why
I think I am feeling OK and go to get ready to go out and then find out I am too breathless to go as soon as I start moving around or else I try a quick lie down to regain some energy and fall asleep before I know it or I can't bear to drive any further so just end up at Golden Beach and pay full price at the local SPAR supermarket there. It is certainly not the way to save money and gone are the days of being able to shop around according to what was on special where. The same thing is happening for a tobacco run, ie. not making it to Rainbow Fuel where the cheapest tobacco is. It is $4 a packet (the new tiny 25g pouches which aren't really that new) more at Coles.Pain isn't helping. I can't get on top of that either with the tiny amount of oxycodone I am on (in combo with naloxone) so my mood is pretty dead pan and no doubt I would be cranky if there was someone here trying to push me into "trying harder", "going for a walk just to the end of the street, or simply not understanding. But I will say it again......I feel like I have got the flu and it is so hard to push through that when you know you might end up worse off because you didn't rest. I'm wondering if I get enough rest even though I don't do anything much except potter around because I still resist going to bed and just doing nothing. I am always working on something even when my brain isn't working efficiently enough to do it properly, I have to keep engaged or else the pain will overwhelm me and it is only when it does that I lie down. The horrible part is that when I wake up again I am usually in too much pain because the pain killers have worn off while I've been asleep although there are still times that sleeping will help reduce pain levels in the long run even if I wake up sore and wrecked for the first 2 hours. It's also because my body creaks and groans into the new position of lying down and I can feel things either click into a different place as gravity seems to contract me into myself and things hurt. I've always had pain from moving - that is easier to accept but I am also still feeling like I am putting things out in my back and neck and hearing things click in and out or just click whatever way and I know I have grainy knees and similar crackles in my neck just when I turn my head even when I am not attempting to lift my arms. Just taking a top off the right way by crossing my arms before lifting the garment over my head, is enough to ruin the whole day. If I get a migraine then it can often mean the end of my plans for the day and it seems like I have been planning to get out of this house since last year but can't get further than Golden Beach. I have not even had a swim this entire Summer which is soon over.
I am glad I managed to talk Ange into getting out for her swim before Summer was over but she is confined for different reasons. The thing is that she did it thinking that I was going to do the same thing down here but I didn't. "Good idea woman" she typed. I tried but by the time I was feeling half alright for it, it was cool and after dark and all I managed was another "look" at the water with a paddle for me and Milo thrown in after midnight so it wasn't even the same day that Ange went.
The Gold Coast team are moving along in leaps and bounds with regards to research into Chronic fatigue syndrome as defined by Canadian Consensus Criteria which means that at least post-exertion relapse is required for being defined as having CFS aka ME more correctly when using those criteria. Anyway they are discovering lots of things about people with ME/CFS (which is now more commonly known as CFS/ME - huge contribution to our understanding thank you researchers) thanks to grants from the Queensland Government and Fox I think the other main one is.
Here is an excerpt explaining a bit of it but I am not at all familiar with calcium ion transport in the body so it does not mean enough to me other than my genes should be able to confirm it if I knew which ones to look up on my genetic testing but I don't. I think they are still picking out the best genes to look at. Here is the excerpt anyway:
The breakthrough came after researchers from Griffith University identified that patients with CFS/ME were far more likely to have single nucleotide polymorphisms - DNA typos - in the genetic code for certain cell receptor.
This cell receptor is known as transient receptor potential melastatin 3 (TRPM3), and in healthy cells it plays a crucial role - transferring calcium from outside the cell to the inside, where it helps regulate gene expression and protein production.
But in several peer-reviewed papers published by the Griffith team last year, they showed that in CFS/ME patients, something seemed to be going wrong with TRPM3.
In the latest study, the team looked at blood samples 15 CFS/ME patients and 25 healthy controls, and found that immune cells in chronic fatigue patients had far fewer functioning TRPM3 receptors than those of healthy participants.
As a result, calcium ions weren't making it inside the cell like they should be, meaning cell function was impaired.
What makes matters worse is that TRPM3 isn't just found in immune cells. The team tested its presence on immune cells as they're easy to access in blood samples, but the receptor is found on every single cell in the body, which not only explains why CFS/ME has been so difficult to diagnose, but also why it's so severe.
"This is why it's such a devastating illness, and why it's been so difficult to understand," one of the researchers, Don Staines, co-director of Griffith University's National Centre for Neuroimmunology and Emerging Diseases, told ScienceAlert.
"This dysfunction affects the brain, the spinal cord, the pancreas, which is why there are so many different manifestations of the illness - sometimes patients will suffer from cardiac symptoms, sometimes it will be symptoms in the gut."
It's something that's confused doctors for decades, and has lead to much of the misdiagnosis of the condition - but the new research suggests that all of the common CFS/ME symptoms can be explained by these faulty calcium ion channels.
"We now know that this is a dysfunction of a very critical receptor and the critical role that this has, which causes severe problems to cells in the body," said Staines.
To be clear, the research is still in its early phases - all we know for now is that these dysfunctional TRMP3 receptors are involved in the disease, and there's a lot more work to be done.
But Staines suggests that the involvement of TRPM3 receptors could explain why so many patients appear to experience CFS/ME following a traumatic event or serious infection.
The class of receptors TRPM3 belongs to are also known as 'threat receptors', because they're upregulated when the body is under any kind of threat, such as infection, trauma, or even childbirth.
Staines and his colleagues predict that it's this upregulation that causes the the faulty genetic receptors to get over-expressed and then take over, messing up the calcium transfer in a range of cells.
For now, that's just a hypothesis. But it's a much-needed starting point for researchers to look into further.
Monday, January 09, 2017
Doctors can be retrained too if they would eat humble pie first
The Blue Ribbon Fellowship
The Blue Ribbon Fellowship will offer medical students a chance to spend their summers studying at some of the top neuro-immune institutes in the world. It is a vital part of this documentary's outreach to the wider medical community. We hope these new young doctors, trained in diagnosing and treating ME/CFS, will re-invigorate the field and will devote their careers to solving complex, chronic diseases. Get ready to come together to raise up "Generation Cure."
Posted by Forgotten Plague on Monday, January 13, 2014
Saturday, January 07, 2017
Our Jamaican Heritage and Health Report
Samuel Edward Moore Sr and Mary or Elizabeth (?)
begat
Saml Ed'wD Moore Jr who married Ellen Tucker in Surry, Kingston, Jamaica. Ellen Tucker's parents are unknown (so far)
Ellen Tucker (Creole, person of colour, probably out of slavery by then) who had resided at Water Lane, Kingston Jamaica when baptised at 13 years old by the Church of England in December 1845,
married
Samuel (Saml) Edward Moore, son of Samuel Edward Moore Sr (?) in Kingston, then boarded the Glentanner ship. I have heard that her age was lied about at around this time. They emigrated to Australia and the gold fields and
married
Samuel (Saml) Edward Moore, son of Samuel Edward Moore Sr (?) in Kingston, then boarded the Glentanner ship. I have heard that her age was lied about at around this time. They emigrated to Australia and the gold fields and
begat
Susannah Louisa Moore. (Mulatto?, my Great Grandmother)
Carl Heinrich Johannes Peters married her in Ballarat. They had many children and
begat
Ernt Angus Peters (and Reuben Carl) in 1899 by which time they had moved to Melbourne where
grandpa's mother, Susan Louisa Moore died the same year from complications arising from my grandfather's birth and he had the dubious honour in the family of being the one who killed her. Any trace of colour was gone after that in my side of that family. Ernest met and married Marion Elsie Bray and
begat
Donald Peters and Malcolm Clyde Thomas Peters
Malcolm Peters married Lucie Joan Greenwood and
begat
me then my sister.
At one stage my Great, great grandmother Ellen Tucker became very sick (with sarcoidosis?) I have read from other researchers and her husband Saml could not look after her. She was sent to live with Henrietta (not sure who's Aunt - ours anyway) in Coolgardie, Western Australia where she died (having outlived her daughter I think?)
I have found a Samuel Edward Moore listed as being in the artillery at Port Royal and there are plenty of canons at the Forts there, just check out the Google Maps photos. I am not sure if this is the right person though. Water street, where Ellen Tucker lived runs along parallel with the Water but back a bit from the big harbour and a lot of the street is now a big transit centre.
It all gives me something pretty new to dream about when I can't do much of anything else but like I said to you sis, I'd love it if we could go there someday. I'm not that into Reggae myself though. The only other place I have wanted to go all my life but not particularly seriously is to see the Aurora Borealis.
I'd like to recommend a movie, available on Netflix with Hola set to United States. It is about a lady also trying to find her coloured roots. It is called Palm Trees in the Snow.
I have not been having a good run health wise, with severe eye pain and photophobia and an associated mainly one-sided headache with a few trigeminal nerves thrown in paining down to my missing tooth and across to my right ear. This started before Christmas and has been quite debilitating. My pain levels seemed to drop a bit when I first took the B12 sublingually again recently but today I am having an even worse flare of pain and stiffness that does not feel muscular. Some is joint pain but some is sheet pain and the skin sensitivity is so bad today I screamed when Milo greeted me with her usual hind-leg stance placing her paws with their claws above my knees. Her constant pawing makes it worse. But you know I love her anyway.
Yesterday (and before that too) I woke in extreme pain and along with the burning gut/stomach which has become a rotten new normal thing but it does subside after a coffee or two and sitting up for a couple of hours. It usually takes that long for the pain killers to kick in on the rest of my body-wide pain anyway. Two hours is too long when I have to face another period like that in the afternoon, well before the meds are supposed to have worn off. So I wait, take, then wait again. I need these pain killers more frequently to cover me 24/7 but I cannot get into the pain specialist before March. And I also need to discuss what to do when my stomach or whatever it is gets blocked and the pain killers don't work at all.
Yesterday I was shocked to find that getting an appointment at Coastal Joint Care was going to take until September. MyI swapped doctors this time. I cannot handle that Lyme-hater Peter Nash and I have heard good things about Louisa Voight from an online friend who is local called Kellie. She is not the first person who has recommended this doctor to me as one who will not give up looking for answers like all the rest do. September the 4th is such a long way off! I still have not talked about Christmas-New Year. It was not the nicest Christmas because I spent it alone. I missed not getting to see the kids open their presents from me and that is the fun part. I also could not eat because of a stomach on strike so I really have just been patiently waiting to get better. I woke up more alive yesterday but a MMA and gastrin and a few things blood test outing may explain why the afternoon was not good. Not that I exerted myself apart from getting in and out of the car. It is all pretty bad and I have more or less given up on the idea of seeing my sister for her birthday in February interstate. Sad for me. Disappointing for Mum and sis. Anyway I am in yet another kind of flare up where lots of my insides hurt. And I have the bowel problems as well as the stomach problems.
Maxalon seems to work as a prokinetic for my stomach to some extent if I take it every meal but then if the bowel is also sluggish it can cause problems further down. It is so hard to balance everything and know what to eat or not. Erythromycin is my preferred prokinetic because it works fast but it is an antibiotic and I can't find out how to get any with a doctor's blessing. They hate the idea. Maxolon seems to work better than Domperidone (Motillium) which is weird. I got no repeat scripts for it though.
Yesterday (and before that too) I woke in extreme pain and along with the burning gut/stomach which has become a rotten new normal thing but it does subside after a coffee or two and sitting up for a couple of hours. It usually takes that long for the pain killers to kick in on the rest of my body-wide pain anyway. Two hours is too long when I have to face another period like that in the afternoon, well before the meds are supposed to have worn off. So I wait, take, then wait again. I need these pain killers more frequently to cover me 24/7 but I cannot get into the pain specialist before March. And I also need to discuss what to do when my stomach or whatever it is gets blocked and the pain killers don't work at all.
Yesterday I was shocked to find that getting an appointment at Coastal Joint Care was going to take until September. MyI swapped doctors this time. I cannot handle that Lyme-hater Peter Nash and I have heard good things about Louisa Voight from an online friend who is local called Kellie. She is not the first person who has recommended this doctor to me as one who will not give up looking for answers like all the rest do. September the 4th is such a long way off! I still have not talked about Christmas-New Year. It was not the nicest Christmas because I spent it alone. I missed not getting to see the kids open their presents from me and that is the fun part. I also could not eat because of a stomach on strike so I really have just been patiently waiting to get better. I woke up more alive yesterday but a MMA and gastrin and a few things blood test outing may explain why the afternoon was not good. Not that I exerted myself apart from getting in and out of the car. It is all pretty bad and I have more or less given up on the idea of seeing my sister for her birthday in February interstate. Sad for me. Disappointing for Mum and sis. Anyway I am in yet another kind of flare up where lots of my insides hurt. And I have the bowel problems as well as the stomach problems.
Maxalon seems to work as a prokinetic for my stomach to some extent if I take it every meal but then if the bowel is also sluggish it can cause problems further down. It is so hard to balance everything and know what to eat or not. Erythromycin is my preferred prokinetic because it works fast but it is an antibiotic and I can't find out how to get any with a doctor's blessing. They hate the idea. Maxolon seems to work better than Domperidone (Motillium) which is weird. I got no repeat scripts for it though.
Sunday, November 13, 2016
Lymphoma drug Rituximab for MEcfs
Dr. Øystein Fluge is Chief Physician in the Department of Oncology at Haukeland University Hospital, University of Bergen, Norway. He received his medical degree in 1988 from the University of Bergen and has specialized in oncology since 2004. He has conducted research at the Surgical Institute and Department of Molecular Biology, University of Bergen and has been funded as a Research Fellow by the Norwegian Cancer Society.
In 2004, Dr. Fluge and his colleague, Dr. Olav Mella, a neurologist at the same institution, noticed that a patient’s ME/CFS symptoms improved substantially while undergoing chemotherapy treatment for a concurrent diagnosis of lymphoma. This was followed by a pilot study in 2009 with positive results. In 2011, Dr. Fluge, Dr. Mella, and their colleagues published a randomized double-blind placebo-controlled trial of rituximab in 30 ME/CFS patients demonstrating that two-thirds of the intervention group experienced moderate to major improvements in their ME/CFS symptoms. For a medical condition with no disease-modifying treatments, this was a ground-breaking study. Currently, they are in the midst of attempting to replicate their results in a larger Phase III multi-center study in Norway.
The above was Dr Fluge's bio from the recent IACFS/ME Conference outline.
I was just wondering if you've got any of Dad's cancer/immune suppression/B cell depletion drugs still lying around? I guess you think I'm joking. Which drug ending in mab did he use? It's just that by the time they figure out how to cure this thing and release the drug to the impoverished masses via Medicare, I could be dead.
Went to Coles for the first time in ages today. I've been ordering groceries online since I couldn't walk straight, was dizzy and my heart was pounding after moving my body, even lifting an arm. I did use the new wheelie walker at home but at the Golden Beach shops/doctors I only used a walking stick or just went ultra slow. I only went out when I had no choice. I've had problems with breathing too as you know. The first three things have just vanished more or less overnight when I started taking Jarrow Formula's sublingual Methyl B-12 which is not the same thing as what you can buy at the chemist because of the type of B12. I have been taking it for 2 weeks I suppose and I am sure my brain is working a bit better too and I'm not falling asleep all the time. I do not know how much that 2 weeks has altered my serum B12. I guess it may not show up as "Low" on the blood test I requested on Thursday but I am heading to another new doctor next week to find out.
I have read that people are getting neurological (including dementia) symptoms from low B12 even before it reaches the cut-off point for too low that the pathology labs set as standard. I wish they would do something about that because the doctors set their standard by the pathology labs. My doctor recently ran some blood tests but they were the same old ones and even if anything was slightly raised I would not be told. I just got the standard reply "no action necessary". It was hard enough to get an actual figure for my blood glucose 3 month average which was a well-controlled 6.2, one point up from last time. What I mean to say is that if low B12 is going to be the explanation for my decline this year, then it will not be forthcoming from my regular doctor. I'm doing this myself. It also ties in with my MTHFR gene mutations.
In 2004, Dr. Fluge and his colleague, Dr. Olav Mella, a neurologist at the same institution, noticed that a patient’s ME/CFS symptoms improved substantially while undergoing chemotherapy treatment for a concurrent diagnosis of lymphoma. This was followed by a pilot study in 2009 with positive results. In 2011, Dr. Fluge, Dr. Mella, and their colleagues published a randomized double-blind placebo-controlled trial of rituximab in 30 ME/CFS patients demonstrating that two-thirds of the intervention group experienced moderate to major improvements in their ME/CFS symptoms. For a medical condition with no disease-modifying treatments, this was a ground-breaking study. Currently, they are in the midst of attempting to replicate their results in a larger Phase III multi-center study in Norway.
The above was Dr Fluge's bio from the recent IACFS/ME Conference outline.
I was just wondering if you've got any of Dad's cancer/immune suppression/B cell depletion drugs still lying around? I guess you think I'm joking. Which drug ending in mab did he use? It's just that by the time they figure out how to cure this thing and release the drug to the impoverished masses via Medicare, I could be dead.
Went to Coles for the first time in ages today. I've been ordering groceries online since I couldn't walk straight, was dizzy and my heart was pounding after moving my body, even lifting an arm. I did use the new wheelie walker at home but at the Golden Beach shops/doctors I only used a walking stick or just went ultra slow. I only went out when I had no choice. I've had problems with breathing too as you know. The first three things have just vanished more or less overnight when I started taking Jarrow Formula's sublingual Methyl B-12 which is not the same thing as what you can buy at the chemist because of the type of B12. I have been taking it for 2 weeks I suppose and I am sure my brain is working a bit better too and I'm not falling asleep all the time. I do not know how much that 2 weeks has altered my serum B12. I guess it may not show up as "Low" on the blood test I requested on Thursday but I am heading to another new doctor next week to find out.
I have read that people are getting neurological (including dementia) symptoms from low B12 even before it reaches the cut-off point for too low that the pathology labs set as standard. I wish they would do something about that because the doctors set their standard by the pathology labs. My doctor recently ran some blood tests but they were the same old ones and even if anything was slightly raised I would not be told. I just got the standard reply "no action necessary". It was hard enough to get an actual figure for my blood glucose 3 month average which was a well-controlled 6.2, one point up from last time. What I mean to say is that if low B12 is going to be the explanation for my decline this year, then it will not be forthcoming from my regular doctor. I'm doing this myself. It also ties in with my MTHFR gene mutations.
Saturday, September 24, 2016
The most important and respected study into CFS so far
The bottom line of the Naviaux, Gordon et al study was to discover that CFS is like a state of dauer. So a cure is going to involve "waking me up". And that seems to involve getting my metabolism to switch back to a time when it had not ever detected a state of lack and either become stuck in that metabolic state or still detects a threat to survival so my mitochondria continue to inhibit some functions and accelerate others. In this state, eighty percent of the diagnostic metabolites in the study are decreased, consistent with a hypometabolic syndrome. Pathway abnormalities include sphingolipid, phospholipid, purine, cholesterol, microbiome, pyrroline-5-carboxylate, riboflavin, branch chain amino acid, peroxisomal, and mitochondrial metabolism. Mitochondria take care of these things by relying heavily on B12 and folate for instance so supplementing becomes more accurate at least when you have the facts. I do not understand anything about sphingolipid and phospholipid metabolism but maybe my brain can pick up a bit from what I read. The best news is that this is just the first in a series of research studies which will now be undertaken by the Open Medicine Foundation (Ron Davis) and Naviaux in partnership. Joint publisher of the paper was Whitney Dafoe's doctor Gordon and it was he who introduced the two men and Whitney's illness was what put Professor Ron Davis into the role of father, carer and researcher into M.E. Whitney is not doing so well.
Reference: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10155403448134625&set=a.10150132705684625.287552.508159624&type=3&theater
The questions and answers about the first study published have been reproduced here from the site of the hope of my future:
ie. http://www.openmedicinefoundation.org/2016/09/09/updated-metabolic-features-of-chronic-fatigue-syndrome-q-a-with-robert-naviaux-md/
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| Whitney Dafoe 27 September 2016 #MillionsMissing |
Many of you have asked for updates on my brother, Whitney. I hesitate to post often because it is so personal to him and to our family. Today we are back in the hospital with him as he gets the tube into his stomach replaced. Since getting put onto the J/G Tube, and customizing what we put into him very carefully, his nutrition and weight has greatly improved. However, he is still unaware of the great research being done around him. The research that he brought to motion with his illness and his fathers devotion. He cannot communicate, he cannot tolerate any sound, he is extremely sensitive to light, and he can barely lift an arm off the bed. This photo of him is from this morning going into the ambulance; the first time he's been outside since his ambulance ride last January. He cried as he looked up at the sky and trees. This disease has taken everything. His health, his ability to communicate, to be held, to touch, and to be outside with nature. People ask me if I really believe my dad will find the answers to this mystery. And my answer, without hesitation, is yes. Answers will be found, treatments will be created. Just remember that all of you who are suffering are not alone. There is hope. We are fighting for you with everything we have. Posted by his sister
Reference: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10155403448134625&set=a.10150132705684625.287552.508159624&type=3&theater
The questions and answers about the first study published have been reproduced here from the site of the hope of my future:
ie. http://www.openmedicinefoundation.org/2016/09/09/updated-metabolic-features-of-chronic-fatigue-syndrome-q-a-with-robert-naviaux-md/
Q1. Some people still argue that CFS is not a real illness but all in the mind. Does your discovery of a chemical signature help shatter this myth?Yes. The chemical signature that we discovered is evidence that CFS is an objective metabolic disorder that affects mitochondrial energy metabolism, immune function, GI function, the microbiome, the autonomic nervous system, neuroendocrine, and other brain functions. These 7 systems are all connected in a network that is in constant communication. While it is true that you cannot change one of these 7 systems without producing compensatory changes in the others, it is the language of chemistry and metabolism that interconnects them all.Q1.1. If you found that CFS is caused by chemical changes, why do you ask about childhood trauma in your new questionnaire for the expanded CFS metabolomics study? The questions made me think you were just like all the other doctors who told me that CFS was all in my head?The answer to this question has several layers. Perhaps the most important is founded on our discovery that the brain controls metabolism. Any factor that causes a chronic change in how the brain works will produce objective chemical changes in the blood. Reciprocally, any chronic change in any of the 7 systems listed in Q1 will produce compensatory chemical changes in the blood that are coordinated by the brain, but can also change brain function. Profound personal loss, grief, depression, fear, chronic pain, anxiety, and PTSD all cause chemical changes in the blood that we can measure with metabolomics. In the case of PTSD, scientists have found that one of the strongest predictors of risk of a veteran coming home from Iraq or Afghanistan with PTSD was a history of childhood psychological trauma. We are trying to study this chemistry of risk objectively. The science behind the expanded CFS metabolomics study demands that we ask both CFS subjects and normal controls about psychological trauma to see if this can increase the susceptibility to CFS later in life, and to see how previous trauma might influence current metabolomics.Q2. How does chronic fatigue syndrome fit in with other kinds of hypometabolic states or syndromes?All animals have ways of responding to changes in environmental conditions that threaten survival. We discovered that there is a remarkable uniformity to this cellular response, regardless of the many triggers that can produce it. We have used the term, the cell danger response (CDR) to describe the chemical features that underlie this response. Historical changes in the seasonal availability of calories, microbial pathogens, water stress, and other environmental stresses have ensured that we all have inherited hundreds to thousands of genes that our ancestors used to survive all of these conditions.The body responds differently to the absence of resources (eg, caloric restriction or famine) than to the presence of pathogens and toxins. We can classify two responses: a single-step response to the absence of resources, and a two-step process in response to the presence of a threat. Both responses are completed by a return to normal metabolism and function. When resources are severely curtailed or absent, the full CDR is bypassed, and the flow of nutrients through metabolism is decreased to conserve limited resources in an effort to “outlive” the famine. This is often called a caloric restriction response. On the other hand, when the cell is faced with an active viral, bacterial, or fungal attack, or certain kinds of parasitic infection, exposure to certain toxins, or severe physical trauma, this activates the two-step response. The first step is to acutely activate the CDR. Innate immunity and inflammation are regulated by the metabolic features of the CDR. Activation of the CDR sets in motion a powerful sequence of reactions that are tightly choreographed to fight the threat. These are tailored to defend the cell against either intracellular or extracellular pathogens, kill and remove the pathogen, circumscribe and repair the damage, remember the encounter by metabolic and immunologic memory, shut down the CDR, and to heal.In most cases, this strategy is effective and normal metabolism is restored after a few days or weeks of illness, and recovery is complete after a few weeks or months. For example, only a small percent of people who are acutely infected with Epstein-Barr virus (EBV) or human herpes virus 6 (HHV6), or Lyme disease go on to develop chronic symptoms. If the CDR remains chronically active, many kinds of chronic complex disease can occur. In the case of CFS, when the CDR gets stuck, or is unable to overcome a danger, a second step kicks in that involves a kind of siege metabolism that further diverts resources away from mitochondria and sequesters or jettisons key metabolites and cofactors to make them unavailable to an invading pathogen, or acts to sequester toxins in specialized cells and tissues to limit systemic exposure. This has the effect of further consolidating the hypometabolic state. When the hypometabolic response to threat persists for more than 6 months, it can cause CFS and lead to chronic pain and disability. Metabolomics now gives us a way to characterize this response objectively, and a way to follow the chemical response to new treatments in systematic clinical trials.Q3. You talk about the chemical signature being similar to a state of hibernation. What sort of animals exhibit a similar signature in hibernation?I wouldn’t use the term hibernation to describe chronic fatigue syndrome. Humans do not hibernate. But I can see how it would be a way that people might get a general idea of the chemistry that we found. Hibernation is just one of a handful of hypometabolic states that has been studied in different animals. There are many others that go by names like dauer, diapause, torpor, estivation, caloric restriction, etc. Many environmental stresses will trigger hypometabolism in humans. In our experience, the metabolic signature of dauer is more similar to CFS than some of the other hypometabolic states that have been studied. One of the main points of our metabolomics study of CFS was to give other scientists a new tool to analyze all of these hypometabolic states, developmental stages, and syndromes so that the similarities and differences can be objectively studied, and rational new therapies developed.Q4. Are men and women really that different in CFS?Yes. About 40-50% of all the metabolites that we measure in our method have a different normal concentration in males and females. This is not all related to testosterone and estrogen. Literally hundreds of metabolites are tuned to different concentrations in men and women. At the pathway level, we found that men and women shared 9 (45%) of the 20 biochemical pathways that were disturbed in CFS patients. Eleven pathways (55%) were more prominent in males or females. We find that to do metabolomics properly, you need to have an adequate number of age- and sex-matched controls. If healthy males and females are lumped together as controls, the power to see metabolic differences in CFS and many other diseases is much decreased. Likewise, the metabolism of a 25-year old male is different from a 35-year old male, and categorically different from a 25-year old female. In each decade of life there are many metabolic changes that occur as part of normal development and aging. When proper age- and sex-matched controls are used, metabolomics is one of the most powerful new tools available to physicians and scientists to study chronic complex disease.Q5. How do the metabolic changes you identified in CFS relate to the recent interest in epigenetics and methylation pathways?All the covalent chemical modifications of DNA and histones that regulate gene expression are the result of metabolic changes controlled by mitochondria. For example, all DNA and histone methylation depends on the availability of S-Adenosylmethionine (SAMe). [SAMe supplementing makes me feel horrid] Phosphorylation reactions depend on the availability of ATP [D-Ribose forms ATP and it is my favorite supplement to give me energy. It costs too much else I'd live on it in my coffee.]. Acetylation depends on the availability of Acetyl- CoA. Demethylation depends on the availability of oxygen [I run out of oxygen] and alpha-ketoglutarate. Other demethylation reactions require the availability of FAD+ and generate peroxide. Deacetylation depends critically on the availability of NAD+. DNA ADP-ribosylation also depends on the availability of NAD+. The master fuel regulator AMP kinase (AMPK) activity depends on the build-up of AMP or the de novo purine biosynthesis intermediate AICAR (aminoimidazole carboxamide ribotide). mTOR is another key barometer of cellular fuel status. mTOR activity requires the availability of leucine. All of these metabolites that regulate epigenetics and gene expression are controlled primarily by mitochondrial metabolism. This makes sense because all cellular activities must be responsive to local resource availability and remain flexible to respond to potential threats that alter cellular health, and mitochondria are the prime monitors and regulators of cellular metabolism.With regard to cytoplasmic methylation reactions that involve folate and B12 metabolism, mitochondria also play a key role by regulating the release of formate, the balance of NADPH to NADP+, NADH to NAD+, FADH2 to FAD+, propionyl-CoA to succinyl-CoA, and glycine to serine. Ultimately, all of these mitochondrial reactions influence the tide of substrates available for methionine [I like that supplement but although it is cheaper than glutathione is mostly unaffordable to me], cysteine, glutathione, and taurine metabolism. The ebb and flow of these metabolites determines the balance between cell survival and death, controlling epigenetic modifications and gene expression. These reactions are illustrated in supplemental online Figure S6 of our paper.Q6. How might your results help with treatment of CFS?This first paper was not focused on treatment. However, metabolomics reveals a new window into the underlying biology of CFS that makes us very hopeful that effective treatments will be developed soon and tested in well-controlled clinical trials. Metabolomics will be an important component of any clinical trial of new treatments for CFS. It will also play an important role in analyzing the similarities and differences of classical laboratory models of hypometabolic states like dauer.Q7. How would you respond to Dr. Ronald Davis’s recent statement: “What is important to note is that in the absence of evidence of an active infection, it is plausible that the long-term antimicrobial treatments often used for ME/CFS patients are doing more harm than good.”I am in complete agreement. Many antibiotics like tetracyclines, erythromycin, and the fluoroquinolones (eg, Cipro), and antivirals like acyclovir, fialuridine, AZT, and ddC also inhibit mitochondrial functions when used chronically (usually for more than about 3 weeks). Because mitochondria are descendants of free-living bacteria, their machinery for protein synthesis, RNA synthesis, and DNA replication are susceptible to many antibiotics, and for reasons unique to mitochondrial DNA synthesis, they are also sensitive to antivirals. Chronic use of these drugs can do more harm than good if there is no longer good evidence for an active infection. When mitochondrial functions are critically impacted by long-term use of certain antibiotics, a ripple effect in metabolism and gene expression is produced that can further impair energy production by mitochondria, converting an active cell danger response that occurs during active infection to a hypometabolic survival response.In the field of mitochondrial medicine we are particularly sensitive to these issues of iatrogenic toxicity because some of the drugs that inhibit mitochondrial functions are very commonly used in patients without mitochondrial disease. For example, statins, valproate, and metformin can each produce problems in patients with pre-existing mitochondrial dysfunction. Most doctors do not think about how some antibiotics, antivirals, and other common drugs can inhibit mitochondrial function when they are used chronically. Our patients with mitochondrial disease are often the ones who educate their doctors about the mitochondrial dangers of many common drugs.I know this is a sensitive area for many people struggling with CFS. It is important to emphasize that individual medical decisions must be governed by individual responses to treatment. Medical decisions should be informed by science, but cannot be based solely on abstract scientific concepts without also considering the clinical variables that are relevant to the care of each specific patient treated as an individual. Some patients do better on drugs that we would consider to be inhibitors of mitochondrial function. This may not have anything to do with the conventional pharmacologic classification of the drugs as antibiotics, antivirals, anticonvulsants, antidepressants, neuroleptics, or anticholesterol agents. Most drugs have metabolic effects beyond their primary action. Because the field of metabolomics is so new, these “pharmacometabolomic” effects of drugs have not yet been studied well.Q8. Since mitochondria have two main jobs in the cell—energy metabolism and cellular defense—is it possible the one function can be overactive at the expense of the other?Yes. This is a key concept. Our lab classifies all complex chronic disease as being the result of either mitochondrial underfunction or mitochondrial overfunction. Each type has both genetic and environmental causes, but environmental causes outnumber genetic causes in the clinic 10:1. Only expert centers in mitochondrial medicine will typically see the many genetic forms of mitochondrial oxidative phosphorylation and metabolic disorders. Most academic centers will see more of the “ecogenetic” mitochondrial disorders caused principally by environmental factors. These disorders range from autism to asthma, depression and autoimmune diseases, to Parkinson and Alzhemier disease, and many more.Mitochondria lie at the hub of the wheel of metabolism, coordinating over 500 different chemical reactions as they monitor and regulate the chemical milieu of the cell. It turns out that when mitochondria detect “danger” to the cell, they shift first into a stress mode, then fight mode that takes most of the energy-producing metabolic functions of mitochondria off line. Even normal exercise stresses mitochondria transiently and reminds the cell how to heal. Cells “go glycolytic” under conditions of stress, using oxygen less and sugar more for energy production. Mitochondria are highly dynamic in the cell. They will fuse with one another and divide, moving about the cell, changing their location according to cellular needs. Sometimes mitochondria will proliferate so a cell has more mitochondria than normal. Other times they will become hypersensitive to minute changes in one or more chemicals in the environment, overreacting to a stimulus that would normally be undetected by cells that have a normal mitochondrial setpoint.What does all this mean? It means that mitochondria don’t do just one thing. Sometimes, when one function is overactive the other is decreased. This is experienced by athletes in training. Overtraining increases the energy function of mitochondria, but causes a decline in the defense function and they become more susceptible to colds and many other infections. On the other hand, in CFS, many patients report a surprising resistance to the common cold and many other common types of infection. This increase in the antiviral defense function of mitochondria comes at the expense of the energy function.Energy production and cellular defense are two sides to the same coin—when you are looking at one side, the other side is temporarily hidden. Mitochondrial cannot perform both energy and defense functions at 100% capacity at the same time. Health requires a dynamic balance of both these functions. It is plausible that when a particular patient seems to benefit from longterm use of a drug known to be toxic to mitochondria, that the drug helps rebalance cell defense and cell energy functions by decreasing the over-activity of one function and permitting an increase in an underactive function. My experience is that this is rare in CFS, but exceptions occur and are important to understand if doctors are to get better at treating all patients. Both patients and doctors should carefully evaluate the pros and cons of long-term antimicrobial therapy if the signs of an objective infection have disappeared. Any drug has the potential to be therapeutic or toxic.Q9. Does the fact that some antibiotics can inhibit mitochondria mean that treatments for Lyme disease that last too long might actually convert an acute Lyme infection to a chronic post-Lyme syndrome and chronic fatigue syndrome?Yes. There may also be dangers of using long-term antiviral drugs for the same reason. Not all patients will respond the same way, but doctors should know of the theoretical risk and inform patients before continuing any chronic regimen that lasts longer than any objective signs of an infection.Q10. If all roads lead to mitochondria in CFS, are there “mito cocktails” or supplements I can take now that could help me while scientists are working out more definitive treatments?We have learned through hard experience that the answer to this question is not simple. Many patients with CFS have suffered for years or decades. Their metabolic reserves are severely depleted. We have found that if we give the same mito cocktails that we give to patients with genetic forms of mitochondrial disease, the jolt is too much for most people with CFS and they experience a paradoxical flare in their symptoms. Just a simple thing like taking just 25 mg of vitamin B6 and 100 mg of magnesium can send some people into heart palpitations and a feeling of being unwell for hours after a single dose, while a baby with a mitochondrial disease takes twice this much every day without difficulty.The guiding philosophy to starting any new treatment for CFS is to “Start low, and go slow.” A helpful analogy is to think of metabolism in CFS like a car that has not been used all winter and all the gas and fluids are gone or low. If you try to start the engine before the fuel tank and fluids are topped off you can do damage. I think that effective treatments for CFS will ultimately require a 2-step process. First, we have to refill the metabolic tank, then we need to turn the key. The first step will be guided by personal metabolomics testing. The second step will be based on new discoveries in the lab that have focused on the role of mitokines that maintain the cell danger response in CFS and other disorders. Mitokines are signaling molecules that trace to mitochondria. They have metabolic functions inside the cell, and informational functions outside the cell.Q11. Many ME/CFS experts have improved the symptoms in some patients by treating with antivirals and Ampligen (polyIC double stranded RNA). I think this proves that ongoing viral infections are causing our symptoms. It is not merely “tired patients” who are stuck in a lowered metabolic state because of a past trigger (which now is gone).We devoted a section of our paper to this and related questions about infections. The section title was, “A Homogeneous Metabolic Response to Heterogeneous Triggers”. It concluded with the sentence, “Despite the heterogeneity of triggers, the cellular response to these environmental stressors in patients who developed CFS was homogeneous and statistically robust.” As background for this conclusion, I recommend reading our paper on this topic entitled, “Metabolic features of the cell danger response” (PMID 23981537).The first response our body mounts against a viral, bacterial, or any kind of infection is metabolic. Yes, our chemistry is our first line of defense. Our chemistry reflects our instantaneous state of health. Innate immunity is coordinated by mitochondria and is an essential first step in developing adaptive immunity to any infectious agent. Without innate immunity there can be no antibodies and no NK cell activation, no mast cell activation, and no T cell mediated immunity.In addition, all antivirals have metabolic effects that have nothing to do with inhibiting viral DNA or RNA synthesis directly. Many antiviral drugs inhibit the key metabolic enzyme SAdenosylhomocysteine Hydrolase (SAHH). Inhibition of SAHH causes an increase in intracellular SAH levels. SAH is a potent inhibitor of DNA, RNA, protein, and small molecule methylation. This affects both viral and host cell epigenetics, gene expression, mRNA translation, and protein stability. The inhibition of methylation reactions in the cell also affects neurotransmitter (dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin) and phosphatidylcholine membrane lipid synthesis, folate and B12 metabolism, and many other reactions. So by giving antivirals, doctors are not just inhibiting viruses, they are also inhibiting many host cell metabolic functions. Sometimes the inhibition of host cell functions can attenuate ME/CFS symptoms for a time, but in other cases, using potent antiviral drugs inhibits mitochondrial and methylation reactions and can delay a full recovery from ME/CFS.You also asked about Ampligen. Ampligen is a form of double stranded RNA called poly(IC) tempered with one U for every 12 Cs. We have studied the action of polyIC extensively and have published this in our studies of autism and virology. PolyIC and Ampligen act by binding to an innate immune receptor called TLR3, creating a simulated viral infection. If you expose a pregnant animal to a single dose of polyIC at the beginning of the second trimester, she develops a 24-hour flu-like illness then completely recovers. However, her pups have social and cognitive abnormalities similar to autism for life. If you look at their brains, you find that they have activated microglia and brain inflammation for life. In adults, Ampligen also binds the TLR3 receptor, and activates an incomplete antiviral response characterized by activation of interferon and other cytokines. Long-term use of polyIC carries a risk for toxicity because of chronic innate immune stimulation. In certain clinical situations like cancer or Ebola virus infection the toxicity is actually part of the therapeutic effect. Chronic interferon release causes flu-like symptoms, and the inhibition of mitochondrial protein translation. This can lead to secondary mitochondrial dysfunction. As I noted in an earlier Q&A response, sometimes the inhibition of mitochondrial function can make some people with ME/CFS feel better temporarily because some symptoms can come from unbalanced overactivity of some of the hundreds of functions mitochondria perform. However, in the long term, any pharmacologic inhibition of mitochondrial function will delay a full recovery.Third, latent and reactivated viral and bacterial infections can occur, but in the case of ME/CFS that has lasted for more than 6 months, this may be the exception rather than the rule. Some doctors and scientists have not done a good job at educating patients and other scientists about the difference between serological evidence of infection in the form of antibodies like IgM and IgG, and physical evidence of viral replication like PCR amplification of viral RNA or DNA, or bacterial DNA. We have learned in our autism studies with Dr. Judy Van de Water that supertiters of antibodies do not mean new or reactivated viral replication. Supertiters of IgG antibodies mean that the balancing T-cell and NK cell mediated immune activity is decreased. This is a functional kind of immune deficiency that causes an unbalanced increase in antibodies. This is like the famous figure-and-ground illusion that shows the silhouette of two faces that also create the form of a vase. Both things happen. But which is cause and which is effect? Increased IgG antibodies to CMV, EBV, HHV6, Coxsackie, etc. are not good evidence of a reactivated viral infection. While Coxsackie is an RNA virus related to poliovirus, antibody titers can increase to this virus too, even though it cannot establish a chronic or latent infection. This can be proven in most cases by trying to measure viral DNA or RNA by PCR in the blood or swollen lymph nodes. In most cases, supertiters of IgG are PCR-negative. There are exceptions to this generalization.Chronic PCR surveillance studies in healthy humans are showing that little waves of viral replication happen periodically throughout our lives. We have been, and are regularly infected by hundreds of viruses over a lifetime. Sometimes this is obvious and causes a symptom like blisters or an ulcer around the mouth. However, most of the time these waves of viral replication are silent and produce no symptoms at all because they are handled in the background by the innate and cell-mediated immune system. Even the deadly poliovirus infected 150 to 1800 people, producing only mild or unnoticed infections, for every one person who developed paralytic disease. In most of the cases of ME/CFS that I have seen where IgG antibody titers have been measured before, during, and after antiviral therapy, the antibody titers remain high after treatment, even though the patient may report symptomatic improvement. I believe the symptomatic improvement after antiviral treatment may have more to do with the metabolic effects of antivirals in ME/CFS than their action on viral replication. The good news is that this hypothesis can be studied scientifically and put to the test easily using the tools of PCR and metabolomics.Good science needs to remain open, ask the questions without bias, design good experiments, take careful measurements, then have the courage to follow the data wherever they may lead.Q12. I read that your study shows that diet can cure ME/CFS. I have suffered and studied this disease for many years. I’ve tried every diet under the sun. You are categorically wrong.Please refer to our paper in PNAS, which is free to download for anyone. Or go to our website at: naviauxlab.ucsd.edu and click the CFS button. You can download the paper and this Q&A from the website.Our studies show that metabolism might be the final common denominator for ME/CFS. It is important to remember that “diet” and “metabolism” are not the same. Diet is what we eat. Metabolism is the performance state of the matrix—the dynamic state of flow in the network that constitutes all the biochemical reactions that our cells use to conduct the business of life. Doctors in the field of biochemical genetics have been treating inborn errors of metabolism for over 50 years. Correct treatment of metabolic disorders is complex and takes advantage of both the resource and the signaling functions of foods, supplements, vitamins, cofactors, and metabolic drugs. Mitochondria lie at the hub of the wheel of metabolism. Because mitochondria are also the concertmasters of innate immunity and inflammation, it makes them uniquely positioned to help the cell decide whether to devote energy and resources to “peacetime” metabolism, or cellular defense. We have several ideas about how to approach the treatment of CFS. We will be testing these in carefully designed clinical trials. For more thoughts on treatment, see the answer to Q10 above.
Sunday, July 31, 2016
Sunday, June 26, 2016
Louise Ramage was an online friend who I felt close to. So sad, RIP Louise.
Louise had Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME). She took Percocet for the pain. She lived near Vancouver and seemed to have as much disappointment with the medical system as I do here in Australia. She was hopeful when a complex diseases clinic opened up nearby but she soon realised that they could not help.
I know exactly how you feel. I'm not young anymore and I find it harder and harder to cope and it seems things are just getting worse. I hate to say this...but you might understand my thoughts ~ at times I think of getting a gun and pulling the trigger. I don't really want to die of course but just have some quality of life. You don't have to worry as I wouldn't do such a thing...plus you can't just go buy guns here in Canada....we're not like the U.S. I tell you the States are all gun happy. I just don't have much faith or hope either but we just have to keep on trying. I called my daughter yesterday in tears. I feel I must be a burden. Sometimes with this illness I'll just break down and call either Leeanne or Dick. I always apologize for complaining...so grateful my daughter and b/f keep siupporting and loving me. Let's just pray something changes. That New Complex Disease Center will be opening in early 2013 but I'm not stupid and I realize there is no cure so I'm not even hopeful with that. I'll go in the hopes that they can learn more about this illness and pray it will help others in the future. Who knows...perhaps they'll have a few suggestions....I'll be grateful for any help at all ~ but I know not to expect miracles. No one should have to suffer like like this Judy...unbelievable how cruel the medical community is to keep sweeping it under the carpet and making those who have M.E. belittled and treated like we are all psych cases. Hoping this new center will educate drs. One can dream. January 2013
It had gotten to the stage that she lived only for the odd good day as she explained:
We relived some of our good memories together and we celebrated when we were well enough to create some new memories with our families.
Judy I know how you feel. I've been in such a long horrid crash. I sometimes just get so I'll I think I should check into the hospital but then I realize they would just think I'm crazy and anyhow what can anyone do? I have to see my Dr. today and hope I don't end up in tears ~ I cry so easily when I'm so sick...my emotions are all over. I think a crash is worse than pain because at least with pain you can usually get some relief...but there is nothing you can take for a crash...it just feels like your dying...so exhausted beyond description...so weak. I get to the point I don't even want to talk to anyone as it's too much energy. Have a "to do" list on my coffee table here and some things involve phoning people...but I'm just not up to it. I have to discuss pain meds with my Dr today and unsure what he'll want to do. He asked me to research pain meds and I found it depressing. Know I'm thinking of you...this illness is so hard...I just live for the odd days I get here and there where I don't feel so sickly. I really pray you get a break soon...it can really pull you down. xxx
....seeing you there with that cracker brought back memories of my family all around the table for Christmas dinner in the past. We always had those crackers and we would wear our silly hats and go round the table and read off the jokes.2011
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| 2011 when we became Facebook friends. Louise and her daughter. |
Judy this illness is so terrible. I'm so glad that both you and I both were able to enjoy Christmas...I tell you it was a fluke I was able to go...if my daughter had the dinner on Christmas day it definitely would have been a "no show" for me.........I am just so frustrated Judy. I can't hack this stupid pain and lack of sleep. I find taking percocet a double edged sword. I so need them but then of course you build up a tolerance and they just don't work as effectively as they once did and trying to keep usage of them down gets harder and harder. Sometimes I feel like getting and a gun and pulling the stupid trigger. I have so many different pain syndromes ~ it just never ends. Today I woke up to severe RLS...absolutely brutal. Feels like maggots crawling from my feet straight up to my lips and cheeks. Then if it isn't RLS I'll have severe fibromyalgia, or bone pain, or nerve pain, or severe joint pain. Sometimes I just don't even know what kind of pain I'm experiencing. I just get so frustrated and scared. Then the "crashes" are horrendous...you know all about that. Seems we just live to exist...that's why being able to get out for Christmas was such a blessing (for you and I)! 27/12/2012
I have to go see my Dr on the 2nd and am already worried about that....I always think to myself "am I going to be in a crash", "am I going to get enough sleep", "am I going to be in pain", "will I be able to do the drive"? This is how we live now...it almost seems weird to look back on my life and remember that I use to have no thoughts about such things. If I had to shop then shopped. If I wanted to plan to meet up with friends well then I did. I only managed to have one bbq here for my daughter and her family since I moved here 7 months ago. I had to keep calling them on what I call my "good days" until finally I managed to get them over when they had no plans. This is why we have lost so many of our friends. We can't plan to meet up with them...we just live an existence day by day, hour by hour never knowing what is coming next.
I'm so frustrated...I have been waking up every day since the 24th before 2 am because of pain. I can't just turn around in bed and try to get back to sleep. That would be too easy. Instead I have to get up and take 2 Percocet and then I'm up for the day. For some reason Percocet stimulates my brain and I'm very seldom able to sleep on them. It makes for such a long day Judy. I really want to live...but I don't like just existing.
BTW those antibiotics will give you brutal bowel attacks. It's not going to be a pleasant treatment so all we can do is keep praying and hold onto faith that this treatment helps you. I'm glad we touched base again. You can always talk to me if your going through a hard time of it ok? Sometimes I don't look at FB everyday...it so depends upon how I feel. I wish I could say something positive to you Judy. Love you...hang in there...and here's to HOPE30/12/2012
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| Louise was fond of horses before ME |
I think about those things as well...but I think if ever I was to be healthy Dick and I would start a life together. I definitely would spend allot more time with little Jacob. I'm 55 so nically think I would look for some work...it could just be part-time...just anything to keep busy and also so I would be more social. So use to lying on the couch all the time it would definitely be a change haha. Just having a part-time job would help me out financially as well. Anything is better than this! July 2013
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| 2015 at her daughter's wedding |
I got botox for my bleuphrospasm on Friday morning. It was a Christmas gift from my daughter. I used to get it every 3 months but that was about 8 years ago. In about 8 more days it'll start to kick in and my eyes won't be closing up on me. He charged me for medical purposes hence the cost was about half the amount someone would pay if it was done for cosmetic purposes but even with that it was a fortune. Now I remember why I just decided to have my eyes contract constantly and close up on me![and forget about treating it]
The botox will work...it should start to kick in on Sunday....typically takes 2 weeks to fully work...but I always start to feel results in 10 days...it feels so good. You can feel the muscles in your upper and lower eyelids being forced open. Initially your eye lids won't totally close up...but it's so much relief from the constant strong contractions I get without it. He was so nice and stuck a little amount in the worry lines I have between my eyes and also a few other spots. If you're going to have a medical problem such as bleuphrospasm it actually helps out with eye wrinkles too . Once when I use to see my neurologist for injections I joked to him and asked him to get some of those eye wrinkles out at the same time lol...to which he replied that when using botox for bleuphrospasm it actually is used in areas they use to get rid of eye wrinkles ~ BONUS...if you're going to have a medical condition like that at least it gives a cosmetic look at the same time. wink emoticonBut since I haven't had botox for about 10 yrs I have more wrinkles because of the continual contractions...also add in the age factor! I better get some pictures done during those 3 months because there is no way I van get it done every 3 months. I was thinking if I could have it done 2 times a year at least that would be 6 months of relief which is a whole lot better than the 10 yrs I've gone thru without any. When my eyes are really bad I go blind...so I am looking forward to feel the results and being able to see.
People are so weird Judy...so anytime my eyes are closing up tight and strangers will actually come up to me and ask what's wrong with my eyes...if I had more guts I'd ask what was wrong with their face haha. Actually I wouldn't....I'm not so rude!
This was the last public post that she made on June 23rd 2016
Ok I've been training Skye (her cat) to "come" on command, to "sit" on command and also to "high 5" on command. I don't push him as I don't want to bore him. Another video but he's definitely understanding what he's been trained to do.
Ignore his hair floating across my floor ~ the shedding never ceases! With all that said...here is Skye doing his thing:
https://www.facebook.com/louise.ramage1/videos/10154193873555930/
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But since I haven't had botox for about 10 yrs I have more wrinkles because of the continual contractions...also add in the age factor! I better get some pictures done during those 3 months because there is no way I van get it done every 3 months. I was thinking if I could have it done 2 times a year at least that would be 6 months of relief which is a whole lot better than the 10 yrs I've gone thru without any. When my eyes are really bad I go blind...so I am looking forward to feel the results and being able to see.